Never Cry...

Never cry,
Sweet heart!,never cry...
Its paining,its hurting...
never cry,
Sweet Heart!,never cry...

Manasanthanuvve....

We may be miles apart but,
thoughts of u always fills my heart...

What can i do...???

I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we've talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what I'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

There's only so much I can take
And I just got to let it go
And who knows I might feel better, yeah
If I don't try and I don't hope

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

No more waiting, no more, aching...
No more fighting, no more, trying...

Maybe there's nothing more to say
And in a funny way I'm calm
Because the power is not mine
I'm just going to let it fly

What can I do to make you love me
(What can I do to make you love me)
What can I do to make you care
(What can I do to make you care)
What can I say to make you feel this
(What can I do to make you love me)
What can I do to get you there
(What can I do to make you care)
What can I do to make you love me
(What can I do to make you love me)
What can I do to make you care
(What can I do to make you care)
What can I change to make you feel this
(What can I do to make you love me)
What can I do to get you there
(What can I do to make you care)

And love me... love me...

--The Corrs

I cant Bcoz, im trUe...

Days are moving hard
& I believe,
My day is not far behind..

Only,i am Far..
But
Not, by heart


I am a Dreamer,
And I Never let my Dreams down

I am right,
bcoz
My Heart says sooo, I am Right



I Breathe, I Dream & I Live,
It Pains, It Hurts and It Kills,
Everything I bear,
Bcoz,
My Heart says,
I am Right, waiting for my Day!




I don’t have to prove anyone,
As MY heart says,
Im Right, waiting for my DAY!

I saw my angel...

Many peoples wanted to know how my angel will be??…. this is a special blog for them.This is how i felt when i saw her first in my life...

Wow…is she from heaven???... is she my unknown angel???... pinched me for a moment to test me, "am I dreaming???"... aaaaa, its paining.I pinched hard…I am in this world… never in my life, i saw a girl, no angel, so beautiful with those lovely heart n cutest smile…

The moment of her lips, those killing eyes with those ear rings moving too n fro she is an angel made in heaven… the way she walks, ayyooooo she kills my heart…..the way she breathes, im breathless… When she walks, my heart dances to those music of her anklets (kolusu in tamil, patteelu in telugu)...It increases my heart beat to Mt.Everest..

I cant describe my angel no more because, no words were in the dictionary to describe her…

Thanking god… for gifting me the cutest angel with those loveliest heart…thank u sooo much

Cant Smile without you...

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song
And brightened my day
Who would have believed that you were part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away

And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well, I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me

And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

--Barry Manilow

Its Easter....

I dunno that this day has loads of surprises for me. I woke up at 6 with a short prayer I went and opened my window curtains. Iam surprised. With my eyes wide opened I just forgot myself for about a hour. Iam soo happy and just want to go outside and play.

Its really a beautiful sight to see the white snow falling on the ground. All the places filled with snow. I ran through the steps and took the snow in my hand and started playing with them.

After 10 to 15 minutes I realised I didn’t wear my winter jacket and im feeling soo chill. I ran back weared my jacket and came back and started playing with snow. No one to partner me but I played on my own. I kissed the snow for the first time and started building dolls. I made some of my favourite cartoons specially Tom & Jerry. But the doll of my history teacher was my favourite..eeeee

I ringed my home and said tat im playing with snow. I set my camera and started dancing in snow. Good Clips.. Aren’t they???

Days are painy yet the beautiful snowfall made me to have a party on my own. I do enjoyed everysingle moment with the snow. Still now I was enjoying the painy days waiting for my day but this beautiful snowfall brought joy to my heart.

When the sun came out and the snow started melting, I started feeling sad as if my close friend was leaving me. For a moment I was angry with Sun. I sat down and waited till the evening… will my friend will come again to bring joy to my heart..??? As the light dimmed, I started losing hopes and started filling my diary “After 95 years cambridge had snowfall in spring and im lucky to be here……”

It’s a real Easter for me.

thana naaaa na naa na.....

Let me try to put something in my blog before I land in Cambridge(UK). Things got busy and I lost interest in this materialistic world. Anyhow I made my life interesting with things what I learned from my parents. Whatever I do, I used to give my best shot. If it is happy, I would be the happiest person in this world or if it is pain, I would enjoy my pain whole heartedly.

I always try to explore things within my limits. Hmmm limits??? Let me say something about it.

From my childhood I used to think a lot about how should I be, in my life. My parents made it very simple to me. All they said me is, Listen your heart and do what u feel is good.

I had my own set of principles towards my life. ohhh… I don’t want to bore u guys with them.. Let me try to make this blog some what interesting…

Let me say how I spend my day…

The day starts with meditation along with a hiiiiiii to early sunrise. A silent voice from my heart says, I can do it and I will. I just think of my dreams for a moment with a wide smile. That’s how my day starts.

Hmm…Childish Professional????
Good Nickname… isn’t it???
People call me so, but to be honest I love to be a child all throughout my life. I used to forget things easily. Lots of funny things happened with my very good, poor memory….. hahaha

Me & My sister used to have a same color bag. Once in a hurry, I took her bag to college. It was a real funny incident. I traveled with my sister’s bag. Ayyo, thank God!... there was no ticket checking on that day(Because My bus-pass was in my bag and I don’t know its her bag while traveling)…. Hmmm when I say about checking inspector I remember another funny incident.

From my college to avadi-bus depot I have to take ticket. The bus will be soo rush.As soon i get the ticket, i will put them in my bag because I feel that I may miss the ticket in that rush & I never used to dispose those tickets later.

Days moved and tickets started filling my bag and one fine day, checking inspector came. When I opened my bag for tickets, ayyo I had some handful of tickets.. I don’t know which one is the correct ticket and by the time trying to spot the correct one, the checking inspector came to me.

I don’t know what to do. I gave him the entire bunch of tickets. Hahaha, his face went really small and he was trying to figure out the correct one. It was really funny. Once he left the bus, we really laughed like anything and from that day, whenever I see checking inspector I used to laugh within myself…

Ohh.. I went back to old days aa.. ok let me come back to my present.


The house owner is a milkman. He has cows and goats. Early morning after the meditation I used to go down and play with those goats. In mean time those goats became my friends. Everyday before I leave out of my room and enter my room I will talk with those goats.

I don’t know why… I always love villages. Although I lived in a City from my birth, for some reason I never liked cities. I love to walk on those greenish & pleasant farms. I love the smell of the village sand that comes during rain, I love the village people (they are very kind hearted) and many more… I loved to live in village rather than in this materialistic City.

From my childhood, My love and passion was towards INDIAN AIRFORCE but due to some reasons I stepped into this software field. I love what iam & i love what i do and this is what which keeps me charged with passion in this Software field.

Oops..! im again taking u back towards my life…. so I feel I should stop here…. Whatever it is I loved every single moment of my life. I enjoyed both happiness and pain with my whole heart, as I strongly believe everything happens for a reason….

!@#$%^&*

Loneliness one of the hardest things in life to pass by. It tests both our character and mental toughness. All these years grown under the shadows of parents love & care, I found it difficult to adjust to this new world.

I do miss my friends and family. I do miss my beloved sister and our daily fights. It brings smile when I used to think of those reasons we used to fight. Sometimes I feel we have to patent those reasons.

No word for sports in this Professional life. It’s a challenge to work here and battling every day having fun with my team-mates learning new things.

I don’t watch movies and I never went for theatres and so I don’t want to get into a habit of learning those. Apart from Volunteering activities, I found difficult to battle against this loneliness specially during my early part of my professional life.

I don’t like reading novels nor watching Television (cartoons, sports & news are exceptions). The battle was hard specially on those weekends.

I started to explore ways to battle against this gentlemen Loneliness & ended up with the city map spotting some of the cultural and religious places.

I loved the early morning walk on the necklace road along with meditation before the sunrise. Then a walk to Sri Ramakrishna Math, One of the best places I loved to visit in Hyderabad. With instrumental musics around I loved reading those spiritual books.

Photography has become my latest friend joining hands to battle against this Gentleman Loneliness. click here for some latest collection of my album

Also had a try with cooking. But later dropped down the option as i had some worst experience with noodles ended up with soup & sambar ended up with salty rasam. Really had a hard time tasting my own cook :(((

But at the end, i really enjoyed all those movements i passed in this battle. I Love what i do and I Love what i am.

I badly do miss my soccer. Weather i am happy or sad, I always expressed my feelings playing soccer. But later, missing my soccer friend, I fell in love with this blog. Love makes people blind and yes it happened with me. My love with this blog made me forget its limitations. I do got attached to it very close. I don’t want to repeat it again as I make an end to my blog with this “full stop”.

My Re-Union – An Unknown Beautiful friend of mine

People who read my last years blog about Reunion would remember my friends and the fun we had. This time I will say about my another friend I had in my school days. Many don’t know her. Only, a few of mine who is closer to me knows about her.

Going years back, the Happiest part of my life where I never used to bother of anything and lived life enjoying every single moment with my friends and family.

The day will start with a smile seeing my mothers face and a small fight with my sister. Each day, we used to invent new new reasons to fight and this never stops till we go to bed and sometimes in the dreams tooo...


Looking back into my diary,
It was on 6th May 1995, i stepped into my school for the first time in my life.Its a Boys School. That’s the first time I saw that beautiful place filled with flowers, listening the song of the kukoo, the Soccer field(I dunno at that time that,it will become my best friend) and all. I lost my heart on my first sight and fighted with my dad to join that school as he had some other option in his mind.

I got some wonderfull friends before I joined school who incidently was my classmates and also my best friends in my life. Incidently one of his name is VINOD and the other one is Satyan. We were friends from the Training classes for the entrance exam we had in our school.

I loved playing soccer in that ground. “Soccer field”, it was my best friend ever who gave me many wonderfull moments in my life to cheer about. Who gave me many good friends in my life.

In the meanwhile during the day, when I am in school I got her friendship.

She used to wait for me in the hot sun and in the rain. She used to wait for me all throughout the day. I see her daily and i never missed her during my Lunch. I used to go to her and talk with her. Along with my Friends, we used to sit and lye on her laps and start sharing what all happened on the day. Sometimes we used to sleep sharing things with her.

She used to be there whenever i needed and listened me and made me feel easier

During those examination days, we used to go and study with her. I used to pray with her before I leave for exams. And once the exam got over we used to share our question paper with her. All went good till the year April 2000. Later due to circumstances I had to miss her and my friends, as I moved to other school. But whenever I get time, I used to go and see her. I used to lye and sleep on her laps. She offered us peace…

This year I missed my friend. But she is always waiting for us at the same place. Ohh….! Sorry, forgot to introduce my friend na….. Wondering how a girl can be there in a boys school na???
She used to Stand at the back of the Second Main Soccer Goal Post near the back gate of our school decorated with those yellow colour flowers. Yes, she's a tree... This is the place we would gather to meet our friends during every re-union.

Everytime when the Reunion day comes, I used to sit back and think of those wonderful days I had in my school. I used to think of those priceless gems I earned in my life called “FRIENDS”

This year the Re-Union day was on 15th December 07. Every year we are looking for this day. No matter where we are...On Re-Union day, we will assemble together to meet our friends & our Teachers. That’s the promise we hold.

Due to some reasons, I couldn’t make up this year. But all throughout that day, my thoughts were all around my school and my friends. That’s the kind of impact/feeling my school has made it in us.

check our school link http://www.mccschool.edu.in/index.htm

The Real Smile

Things go wrong, getting hurted made me feel worse, but the only thing, which made me smile, even on those worse hurty days of my life, is my Parents Happiness.

It was the worst part of my life, which I never wish to turn back. Those 4 months is like a HELL. I never suffered that much in my life. Cant remember a day without painful-tears. Having a Fake smile to the outer world and crying daily in my heart and back, whenever I entered my room(thanks a lot for my friends, who helped me pass those painful days). Even on those painful days, the only thing which made me smile, is my parents smile.

By fulfilling there small small dreams and wishes, made me see there hidden childishness. No matter what is there age but for a moment they tend to become a child with those hidden emotions.

I never seen my father smiling so happily in my life. But when I made him a Surprise gift of a Brand new bike in my first month salary, the smile and joy I saw in his face made me feel, "I can live without anyone, if I can see my parents smiling like this all throughout my life.” I can do anything for them for the things they sacrificed for my happiness. Nothing gives you a greater joy than your parents smile especially if you were the reason behind it.

Picking my family to the restaurant, Kids having fun around while my sister blinking at the menu card for the order, passing jokes and having fun… all are wonderful memories. I was in hell with those personal battles going on in my heart, but there happiness made me feel the heaven. It made me happy even on those worse days.

I still cant find a day without painful tears in those 4months, but the only day which made me smile is when I was with my parents making them smile.

Believe me friends, Nothing will make you feel great than your parents smile. Try fulfilling there desires and wishes, you will feel the real lifetime joy and satisfaction in your heart. They are the only person who doesn’t know to hurt you.

They enjoyed my success more than me and at the same time they got hurted more than me, for me. No matter its Soccer or Academics, they are the one who celebrated my performance/achievements. And at the same time, she is hurted more for punishing me at odd times.

The only time they punished me in my life that to in a real hard way keeping silence, but doing so they also get hurted…
Miss u ma, Miss u dad, miss u mythili n all….

Fake Smile & Hidden Tears...

When u are not around,
I just cry…I have wondered why?
Then I realized, my tears just comes out searching for you;

You are in my eyes,
I know you are scared of darkness,
That’s why I keep my eyes open.

When am angry, you know what to do
You just smile, and
My anger loses the battle against it;

I want to spend a whole day with you,
I wish my life is just one day long;

If we can talk only during nights,
I wont bother my life being dark.

How can I say????
You are angel without halo and wings or
An angel is you with a Halo and wings
I guess the second is better.

No matter what you do,
You Always Conquer my heart.
Miss you!

One evening, walking in the RAIN.....

Sitting in the second floor with music of those keyboards all throughout day caused due to busy programming, I Slightly turned my chair, watching outside through the glass wall. Hmm.. Its so dark & its raining heavily. The water is flooding through the roads and people were walking, slightly lifting there pants.

Its almost 6.30pm, I have been about 10 hours in office and its time I have to give me some break for the day.

By the time I left my office, its drizzling outside. I slowly walked down the road enjoying the slight breeze and the chillness in air. More than that its drizzling & I loved to walk around the atmosphere.(I love to walk in rain because no body knows I am crying –by Charlie chaplin… these words were 100 percent true for me these days)

The bus stop is so busy with peoples rushing to catch buses which is already full. I decided to walk a kilometer searching for a hostel.

On the way, I found kids playing in rain. I cant stop myself thinking my childhood past. Making leave to school on those rainy days, and playing in rain water with my brothers and sister. It’s a wonderful thing to come by in everybody’s life.

“Cyclone and Thunderstorm today- Educational institutions declared holiday” when i see those head lines in papers and news channels, i will be soo happy. The interesting thing is that it never rains on that day and that particular day would be a sunny one.. whatever it is, i got a day leave… there is no homework nor assignments and I would be happy to spend my day with my friends playing cricket or fighting with my sister. I will b happy not seeing my History Teacher’s face(he really bore’s me with those numbers).

Playing with clays making dolls, making paper boats and leaving it in the rain water along with your sister/brother and at one point of time, splashing the rain water, stamping the paper boat and immersing it which leads to a fight… then amma comes into the rescue… Those are always priceless days specially for people like me staying away from the family…

Relations and Sentiments always gives u responsibilities and its my misfortune that whatever(whomever) I loved, used to be away from me(hurting/killing).Whatever it is, I learned to be positive… I always live by my principles and promises.

A dream come TRUE...I met my ANGEL

07-07-07, A dream come true for us….A year dream, the first meet, the first touch, the first smile, the first walk with me, the first word n all…..cho chweet…

Its always a 50-50 chance…we were not sure tat we can meet tomorrow but everything went by gods wish…

Woke up at 7am and refreshed my self waiting for her call/sms…I got her sms at 7.45am…all my dresses were in the laundry and luckily I had a brown(not exactly) pant a blue(mixed with sky blue,blue n white) with me…I rushed to the laundry to iron it…by the time she started and she was on the way…the laundry person said get it in the evening…ayyo, what to do…troubles started and im getting mad.. I payed him excess above the bill and requested….atlast I managed to get my clothes ironed within 45min…by that I tried to take breakfast but I cant…I tried to drink milk but I cant…. then clothes came pressed…I took the pant and wore the t-shirt and rushed to Hi-TECH where we decided to meet…

I took the pic(childhood pic) that she sended me. She said me once that I should show her that pic when I meet her first.. I prayed god and rushed to Hi-Tech…. Initially I thought I can meet her in madhapur but time-went fast…

She said me before, that she will wear brown colour chudidar on Saturday(7-7-7)…Im waiting for my unknown girl…

Things started happening with fun…today I found more number of girls wearing BROWN colour chudidar… I started guessing and my heart beat raised.. for the first time in my life I combed my hair on the road wid the help of a motor cycle mirror..

Then my angel called me and asked the colour of dress im wearing. I thought to play with her and said im wearing RED colour pant n Green Colour shirt(cant even think of those colours….so bright...hehehe)

But things happen in the other way. Waiting for her under the shades of the tree, I found more girls with brown chudidar.. I found a girl standing besides me with brown colour chudidar.. Im thinking, “is it my angel??”.. I thought to ask her a”R u ANGEL??”. But im afraid that I may get ended with a slap…

Again i got a call from her, that she went past HI-TECH and she coming back through share auto…im waiting for my angel… it was a different feeling all together…

Then my mobile smiled(rang) again…Its angel. I attended the call n said, “Hi angel, where area u??”..she said im crossing the road da. Where are u???…..”..

We saw each other and we realized in the first sight itself…we together raised the hand immediately…what a feeling that was????…her face was sooo bright…

I cant think anything and I turned myself to the wall and thinking “what should I talk and how im going to see her face…” im not shy but how im going to see face her… my legs started to run but I controlled. She came towards me..i bowed my head down… when she came, I said “HI da” and just made a clap sort of thing with our single hand(cricketers used to do wen wicket falls)…then I said, “lets move da”. Thats the first touch and the first word between us..

i started to blabber within myself.. we were standing to cross the road…at that time a sumo came turning on the corner…I just caught her hand and asked her to come back and said “B careful..” ..we crossed the road… we took an auto and went to temple near by.On the way I showed her the first pic she sended me..i was having it in a cover and when I handed the cover to her, she opened her eyes widely smiling WATS THIS??… I understood her thoughts and asked her to open…she saw it and smiled and said me ”keep it with u”. I always used to tease her and have fun…Ofcourse she is my girl and whom can I comment other than her…I love the way she reacts to those comments….we cant see each others face and we were hiding our faces on the opposite sides of the auto watching outside…

We reached the temple n washed our legs and got that archana things(coconut,garland n all)..she bought some jasmine(so beautiful like her).. we prayed an I kept tat vbudhi (it was orange in colour bcoz its hanuman temple) on her head. Then made some 5 rounds…those 5 rounds were like rounding the agni(fire) after marriage.My legs were running and I cant walk or talk with her… we were talking for hours all these days but today, im blabbering… I couldn't utter a single word.. I was trying to call my friends and simply blabbering passing time(I cant see her face, so im doing all pichee(mental) sorts of things…)

then we prayed and left the temple…I called my sister and said “ im wid angel” and she talked with her…

This was a Surprise time. I catched an auto..she asked where we are going now.. I said we are going to My OFFICE now… On the way we were sharing some words and im clear that Iam blabbering with her, but cant help myself stopping it..

We got down at CYBER PEARL building(thats were I work).we crossed the road.. she is short(comes few centimeters below my shoulders) and had difficulty in climbing the small wall(between two sides of the road). I gave my one hand and helped her..we entered the building… it was soo nice walking together…

I was thinking, One day we two come to together working in the same office.. we entered the office and there I saw my friend who came with his family to show the office… we got introduced ourself and went to canteen and had some snaks.we had some nice moments with his family… surely it would have boosted her confidence and would have felt the corprorate culture… I couldn’t take her to my office because only family members only allowed..may be later 2011, i will take her as my spouse...

For us, we were married but for outer world it should happen some day nor the other.. may be on or after 2011. I pray that by 2011, im good enough to meet her parents and at the same time my sister gets married before that...Lets finish all my responsibilities by then

Then I took her to my room and got blessings from our parents…we had a nice time around. Its time that my parents have to leave for there train…it was a sentimental moment where myself,father and mom teared… they didn’t took breakfast…even the last night they didn’t had proper food… we shared tears n I said them bye….

This is life… nothing is permanent and one day nor the other we have to miss them…but its my girl who is going to be with me all throughout my life and im happy tat she is around with me now….The auto started and my parents went.

I was searching for flower shop. But theres no shope near by… then I found some beautiful flower at the middle(between two roads) of the main-road path.. I asked her to wait and immediately crossed the roads and collected some handful bunch of flowers(both white and violet) and gave her saying “I love u”.. I saw only the silence with smile and her eyes was speaking and her chin was blushing…hahaha..really it’s a wonderfull moment …we shared some nice wonderful time till the evening

She feeded me her lunch as my mom does.. I felt my mom in her. I was teasing her having fun watching her sounds.. the way she says, VINOTH and all… its really wonderfull and still there are many feelings unexpressed in this blogs… the day went like fraction of a second.. then we finished our day with prayers in the temple where we went in the morning..

I dropped near her home in auto.. On the way she was holding my hands and lyed on my shoulders. It was soo nice.. now I saw her face.

It was the beautiful and brightest face I have ever seen in my life…she is the beautiful girl and she is the best…. All above that, her heart is chooo cute and chweet….

Dreaming about the day, when we are going to travel together like this with our little family… still years to go and im going back to work hard and face the corporate challenge… praying god helps me to succeed in my new career filled with professional life…

Her place came and she got down and went away..im seeing my angel as she walks away from me...she slowly faded away from my sight but not from my heart..she gave me some wonderful moments today… I loved the way she smiles and the way she reacts when I tease her.. I love the way her chin n cheeks moves while she speaks.. I love the way her ear-ring dances..

Then I catched three buses and two autos to go to my guest house.. I couldn’t eat that night... the room was soo calm and lonely…no one there to order me, no scoldings and I felt soo lonely but all happens for good.. im alone from my family working for them. Im thanking god that my angel was here….

He made us wait and travel pass all those pains… Everything Happens with a reason and now i understood the reason behind our 13months.. He examined us a lot.

I want to see her face all throughout my life.. chooo chweet and choo beautiful really she is a girl made in heaven…..

I pray that she gets placed in this final year in the same company as mine and we two work together…we two go and come back from office together… So friends atlast I met my angel…pray for us that we two get succeeded in our life very soon without any opposition frm this world..

She is my everything…

Guys I typed this whole thing sitting in a browsing center.. so kindly forgive me if this blog has any spell-mistakes…I have no time to check them yaar…

Countless Reasons why i love U!!!!

Each & every moment u were so sweet....
it may b showing the careness and love of a mom
or kicking me wen iam wrong
or supporting me on my odd days
or watever it is, i love u for wat iam!!!!
u r the reason for everything!!!

after ur arrival,
everything looks sweet,
everything looks beautiful,
and iam nothing bound to achieve,
Anything without u!!!

Its hard to pass by,
Even a second without u
Its hard to imagine,
a life widout u

What ever it is....
From hell to heaven,
Life is beautiful with ur thoughts!!!

The Hibiscus Flower - My Angels Heart

After a sleepless night reading her sms, I went to college with her thoughts….i was feeling her presence with me…when I was passing by the entrance of the college, i saw a beautiful white colour hibiscus (chembaruthi in tamil) flower smiling at me...i felt that as if my angel is smiling at me...i went near the flower...it was so soft and beautiful as her heart. Suddenly it started saying me that "vinoth, how can u say like that?...u r my everything da...i love u a lot idiot!!!". i was feeling something as the flower continued talking with me...i felt my angels heart in that flower...i don’t want to leave my angel(flower) alone and so, i plucked that flower and took it with me...

I was having a sweetest conversation with her heart (flower) sitting in the last bench in the classroom reading her sms…her heart was so cute and soft….it was smiling at me and I don’t see anything in my eyes except the flower…hours went talking with her heart and when my friend called me up I realized the lunch was over…….Four and half hours gone like a second talking with her heart(flower).

Then i went to play volleyball as usual in the afternoon (since we are in the final semester, we are let free in the afternoon). I started to serve but I couldn’t serve…I couldn’t concentrate…some one is calling me “vinoth, vinoth…don’t leave me alone…come and talk with me…” I turned back and no one is around…just when I tried to serve again, I realized it was her heart (flower) calling me…

I can’t stand anymore…I just left the volleyball court and sat with her heart (flower) under the shades of the tree. We (i and the flower(her heart)) had one of the sweetest conversations …all throughout the day I was talking with her heart….so sweet, to be filled with her thoughts!!!

Battle between Brain & Heart!!!!!

Brain:
Wake up, wake up my dear(HEART)….talk to me, talk to me!!!!
Why are you these days not talking to me(from 5th Dec 06)….wake up dear, wake up!!!!

Heart:
(No response)

Brain:
Wake up, wake up….talk with me….
Why are you dead these days???? what happened to you???

Heart:
(slowly beats….. as Angel angel, Angel angel INSTEAD of lubb dubb, lubb dubb)

Brain:
What happened to you???? Beating different…why are you not talking to me these days??? talk to me dear!!!!

Heart:
Angel…Angel…(it continues to beat as Angel and never responds)

Brain:
Why you always think of her……why are you not talking with me??? what happened to you??? Talk to me please…..iam nothing without you!!!! please talk with me…..please…..

Heart:
(it stays calm and again it beats as Angel angel……..)

Brain:
Why you always function thinking of her, caring for her?...can't you think of you?…how long will you keep on thinking her…what made you soo??? She keeps on hurting without saying any reason but you keep on living with her thoughts….can't you live without her??? can't you function in a normal way???? you these days not talking to me and if at all you come alive you think about her???? Are you MAD???

Heart:
(again after a long pause it starts beating Angel angel, Angel angel…….)

Brain:
Now Stop playing. you better talk with me or get lost??? Answer me what happened to you???? I can't live without you….don’t be idle and talk with me!!!!

Heart:
After a deep silence answers ”You can't live without me and I can't live without her……”
(after answering it again starts beating Angel angel, Angel angel…..and slowly goes idle without talking as B4…)

Brain:
Ohhh…..but don’t forget me…please remember me atleast and take care of me too…… Love You!!!!

Secret of my Success....

When iam down,
with those sucessive failures,
she was with me urging me to win...
her words boosted me the confindence,
her voice raised me to the occasion...

no one around, except her
urging me to win...

when i have won,
all were around,
except she!!!

she deserves this sucess,
she deserves all of mine!!!

why cant she realise,
i need her by my side...

She is my secret!!!
She is my sucess!!!
She is my Life!!!
She is my Love!!!
She is my everything......

Lonely Travel!!!

My heart so calm...
with gentle breeze around!,
during those lonely travel,
iam arrested by your thoughts...

On the day it was sweet,
but off the way,its painy!!!!

Make life busy,
make life busy!!!!....
To fool myself,making life BUSY!!!

Living for the Moment 2011*

Still 4 and half years to pass for meeting her parents & tell about us...Waiting to see my unknown angel.

Oh god!!!,how it would be???

Lets turn back and see how we met and travelled this far....

It was on 26th June when i met my angel online.Her name is Angel.It was a friendly meet. She was so cute and at first i struggled to spell her name.I dunno that, later she would be my world. I didnt even imagined that i would meet such a girl in my life. She was the one i dreamed of. Days moved and we fell in the madness LOVE.

Before meeting her,i thought the word LOVE is foolmens paradise. But after she came into my life, i realised it was wrong. She made me realise "LOVE" is two hearts beating together,two hearts caring for eachother....i realised "Love is a heavenly feeling between two hearts".

It was on 12th July when i and angel proposed each other.I still remember each and every word she spoke with me on that day...its the day where i told my love and she told her love...I couldnt forget that day...

Days moved & one day she called me. "HELLO!!! Vinoth, iam ANGEL......"those words still repeats in my ears.It was the sweetest music i hav ever heard. Those "hmmm" & "ahaaa" sounds, i love to hear them all throughout my life.The first song she sang for me, i couldnt forget it in my life...

I could feel & realise each and every moment of hers. i could feel her happiness, sadness, tears, smile... In short i could feel what she thinks and does...We were the perfect half made in heaven & thats what i realised with her.

Tomorrow("July 2nd") is my Birthday Vinoth.It was sunday and she made me to sit an entire day infornt of my PC to wish her.Later a week after she told me that it was a lie.The sweetest lie!!!...

Sleepless nights with two hearts beating together, it was gr8. It could not be expressed merely by words.Her prayers,Her smiles,Her words still repeats in my heart...I was in HEAVEN....Speaking in classrooms sitting in the corners of the desk is a thrilling experience.

It was in the month of August when tat funny incident took place.I was making arragements for the National Level Project Exhibition.i was incharge of inviting the colleges in Tamilnadu. I used to finish my work quickly & i will call her when iam free.we used to chat. I used to call her from the public phone in college. Here in chennai there is a ban on bringing mobiles to college(we will hide and bring).On that day the telephone in our college was having some problem.i dunno how to call her and inform iam free in the Net lab. Mean while the classes were going on for the other fellows. My HOD was taking the classes and i asked his permission and got his mobile and rang her in the class infront of HOD.he thought i was ringing to some college regarding the Exhibition.....But my friends knew to whom iam calling and they laughed at the moment. It was quite funny.

LOVE is not only HEAVEN but it is also a HELL when u dont get together.She made me realise both of them.

I still could remember those 50days when we two are apart due to som problems in her home.Those days it was a damn hell. i pray that no one should go through those rough patches as i did.

The promises we shared, still stays touchy in my heart.She plays with me, She hurts me, She teases me,She orders me, She kicks me....all because she loves me!!!!

Waiting for the moment on 2011 to meet her parents and tell about us....I already told about us to my parents and friends. They didnt believed me at first but now they are more eager than me to see my angel on 2011. Till then waiting to see ANGEL.Living with her in my Dreams!!!

LOVE is BLIND!!!...in my case it was 100% TRUE!!!...

LOVE made me care,cry,smile,hurt,heal,sacrifice,wait.......It made me a complete Human.It made me taste the mixture of Heaven & Hell.

But now i could not express my love as b4 after all those hurtings but loving her more than b4 in my heart. Words may be left unspoken but my heart still cares and feels for her....Whenever i think of her, my heart gets filled with joy and eyes gets filled with tears but i cant enjoy those joy or leave those tears of those hurtings but i love her a lot.

LIVING IN DREAMS........i could not say her how much i love her because there is no such words to explain my love. But all i can say her is "Close your eyes and keep your right hand on your heart and ask it...It says my LOVE....Deeper than the ocean and wider than the sky....."

I was not the only one who loves her, it was my complete family who loves her after i told about us!!!!

The one & only wish i make to god is "make me hear those sweetest music all throughout my life...."

Now Vinoth is living for the moment 2011....Living to meet my ANGEL & her parents on 10.06.2011. Will tell about us to her parents on that date and wait for their decision...Perhaps waiting for her till i live......